Hi...I'm take393, sorry..as for the title I presented, I must admit that I have no idea how to continue my novel.
Instead, I wanna talk something else, that is to say...recently, I'm crazy about doing something new, which I haven't experienced before I moved in my new place.
One thing is...I used to have curfew when I lived in my home place, to put it more specific, I had to go back home by 10pm everyday,when I was living with my family.
But now...I don't have to think about it at all,only I have to think about is...how to make my living. Otherwise,I'm gonna be down and out. That's the biggest problem.
Nevertheless, I think I have become more out going person than I used be, to meet some new people chatting over drink and so on.I just wanna see some other people who are out of this world, like some Japanese people speaks fluent English at nearly native level.
And the other thing is, you know...I'm thinking of jumping into another pond like changing job. As I get peanuts every month, it's so hard to make ends meet right now.Actually, it requires a lot of expences,but I haven't got any clue how to deal with it.
In our country, some qualifications must be needed if you change some job, especially if you are over 30.
And to make matters worse, Japan's society has never been opened its doors if you are over 40, unless you were some kind of expertees. That's the way it is in our society. And of course, that problem applies to me too.
So I must consider what I can I do in this world, but it's still difficult to figure out.
As I'm a debt collector right at the moment, rather I'd better think of switching to another Corp at the same field where English are more conducted, instead of jumping into the another field such as becoming a teacher etc.
take393
Sunday, January 30, 2005
Sunday, January 23, 2005
My new way of living has just begun
Hi...I'm take393, long time no see.I'm coming back on this site for the first time about a month.
During this period, things were drastically changed, like my way of living and so on.
I've moved out of my house where I lived with my family for a long period, and have moved in the guesthouse to start a new life.
Actually, my new place is really comfortable for me, because I don't need to take care of my mom any more.
While we were living together, she nagged me all the while, and she was talking a lot of bullshit to me on and on.
I was fed up with her making a lot of complaints to me. Of course, I was trying to hear her out, but finally I couldn't help but yell at her. As I had reached at the end of my tether how to solve that problem, I've taken the plunge and decided to move out so as to live more comfortablly.
On the other hand, my mother is still dragging out talking to me on the phone like,
'What's the hell are you thinking of ? what if you left me alone, I'm not sure what would happen to you next!'
I understand she's still worrying adout me to a certain degree, but why not support me and cheer me up when her son try to become independent and never relies on her?
Actually, I feel like it's kind of a mixed blessing after we've been left apart, but I don't feel myself any gilty at all.
I guess I might take a long time by the time she allows me to do whatever I want to, because she never counts on me due to the fucking dumb head things what I have done in my youth.
Oh...sorry, I couldn't afford to refer to my novel this time, next time I'll try it for sure.
Well, see you next time, my fellows!
take393
During this period, things were drastically changed, like my way of living and so on.
I've moved out of my house where I lived with my family for a long period, and have moved in the guesthouse to start a new life.
Actually, my new place is really comfortable for me, because I don't need to take care of my mom any more.
While we were living together, she nagged me all the while, and she was talking a lot of bullshit to me on and on.
I was fed up with her making a lot of complaints to me. Of course, I was trying to hear her out, but finally I couldn't help but yell at her. As I had reached at the end of my tether how to solve that problem, I've taken the plunge and decided to move out so as to live more comfortablly.
On the other hand, my mother is still dragging out talking to me on the phone like,
'What's the hell are you thinking of ? what if you left me alone, I'm not sure what would happen to you next!'
I understand she's still worrying adout me to a certain degree, but why not support me and cheer me up when her son try to become independent and never relies on her?
Actually, I feel like it's kind of a mixed blessing after we've been left apart, but I don't feel myself any gilty at all.
I guess I might take a long time by the time she allows me to do whatever I want to, because she never counts on me due to the fucking dumb head things what I have done in my youth.
Oh...sorry, I couldn't afford to refer to my novel this time, next time I'll try it for sure.
Well, see you next time, my fellows!
take393
Sunday, December 26, 2004
New year is coming up a head !
Hi..I'm take393,..how was your Christmas?
Did you enjoy it?
I didn't do anything special at all. But I've found one thing..that is to say, Christmas let people feel more relax, also it makes people become more tender to others.
Yon know what I mean?
Even someone pushes me around to do the task or something, I can be more patient, I can let someone says whatever he or she wants to. Only the reason is...it's Christmas, so I don't want to take it out on others.
Alright let's talk about novel...Last time I mentioned how I became closer to those two guys..I guess I have to refer to them in more details.
One guy called 'Makoto' was born in Gunma (a northern part of Kanto Region). He was a year older than I.He grew up in Gunma until he became 8 years old. At that time his parents have devorced and his dad has gone away, so his mother had to raise her children.
Makoto used to have one sister who was 3 years younger than he, but he had lost her due to the sickness when he was 5 years old.
His mother had to work around the clock to raise Makoto. While she was working she has developed cerebral hemorrhage and had to be hopitalized. After 2 months have passed she suddenly passed away...though Makoto was still at his age of 8 years old.When he heard the news that his mother died like a dog, he was really in desperate.
So Makoto had to rely himself on his relative who were his aunt and her husband after all, however it didn't go well.
As they were so nasty and often tried to push him around to help their housework and stuff as he grows up. Especially, his uncle in law was so alcoholic that he often beat up against Makoto when he was in a middle school.
One day after graduating middle school, Makoto decided to get away from them, and he wandered around from place to place, and finally he came up to Tokyo all the way from Gunma and looked for a job.
Still,Makoto was 15 then, and wasn't easy to get a decent job, either since he didn't have any guarantor nor had he any identification. All what Makoto did is,to fake up his walking path, for instance...by cheating some of his passing careers, prentending to be order as if he were 18, using a fake name and so on. He hid himself and deceived others on and on, and he's got a job at the end.
But actually it was not the one what Makoto really expected. To put it more specific, he forced to work as a 'lady-boy'at a certain gay bar, whereas it was not his cup of tea.
As Makoto was pretty handsome guy, he made many guests being attracted, so that he always ranked the first of the boy's list.
Well...I'm afraid it's running out of time,so we stop there.Next time I'll try to refer to Makoto thoroughly. Probably, that would be next year, I'm really sorry about that.
See you next year, and I wish all you guys to have a nice new year !
take393
Did you enjoy it?
I didn't do anything special at all. But I've found one thing..that is to say, Christmas let people feel more relax, also it makes people become more tender to others.
Yon know what I mean?
Even someone pushes me around to do the task or something, I can be more patient, I can let someone says whatever he or she wants to. Only the reason is...it's Christmas, so I don't want to take it out on others.
Alright let's talk about novel...Last time I mentioned how I became closer to those two guys..I guess I have to refer to them in more details.
One guy called 'Makoto' was born in Gunma (a northern part of Kanto Region). He was a year older than I.He grew up in Gunma until he became 8 years old. At that time his parents have devorced and his dad has gone away, so his mother had to raise her children.
Makoto used to have one sister who was 3 years younger than he, but he had lost her due to the sickness when he was 5 years old.
His mother had to work around the clock to raise Makoto. While she was working she has developed cerebral hemorrhage and had to be hopitalized. After 2 months have passed she suddenly passed away...though Makoto was still at his age of 8 years old.When he heard the news that his mother died like a dog, he was really in desperate.
So Makoto had to rely himself on his relative who were his aunt and her husband after all, however it didn't go well.
As they were so nasty and often tried to push him around to help their housework and stuff as he grows up. Especially, his uncle in law was so alcoholic that he often beat up against Makoto when he was in a middle school.
One day after graduating middle school, Makoto decided to get away from them, and he wandered around from place to place, and finally he came up to Tokyo all the way from Gunma and looked for a job.
Still,Makoto was 15 then, and wasn't easy to get a decent job, either since he didn't have any guarantor nor had he any identification. All what Makoto did is,to fake up his walking path, for instance...by cheating some of his passing careers, prentending to be order as if he were 18, using a fake name and so on. He hid himself and deceived others on and on, and he's got a job at the end.
But actually it was not the one what Makoto really expected. To put it more specific, he forced to work as a 'lady-boy'at a certain gay bar, whereas it was not his cup of tea.
As Makoto was pretty handsome guy, he made many guests being attracted, so that he always ranked the first of the boy's list.
Well...I'm afraid it's running out of time,so we stop there.Next time I'll try to refer to Makoto thoroughly. Probably, that would be next year, I'm really sorry about that.
See you next year, and I wish all you guys to have a nice new year !
take393
Friday, December 24, 2004
It's Christmas !
Hi...I'm take393, long time no see!
To tell you the truth, as I was pretty hectic these days, and my dad god rest his soul all of a sudden last month, that's why I couldn't get around to it..so it took me quite a long time to get into this essay. Sorry for making excuses.
As you know...today is the Christmas eve...but unfortunately, I have no plan yet,and I haven't come up with the idea how to spend it either.Since I'm not a Christian, nor am I young enough to think of how to make it up for the wasting times, you know.
I haven't celebrate my own Christmas for ages, since I had split it up long time before.
Today,I'd like to mention how I addicted to drugs and stuff.After I've got acqainted with two guys which I mentioned before, I was just playing around and I ended up being kicked out the university, as it seemed so hard to get a degree within 4 years.Rather I was really wanting to jump into the another pond instead of graduating university.At that time, I was hoping to be richer and didn't want to drag out the situation that I was still down and out.
I really wanted to make my own way so as to seize some chance to make money. I would like to be a certain celebrity, like a millionaire or something, you know. And I was always wondering why most people hold onto such kind of fucking degrees and stuff, whereas some others try to take a chance to seize their dreams. Besides it seemed more fun to take alternative way to make your life fruitful, as far as I was concerned.
2 guys which I met seemed not to be mediocre, so that I was intrigued so much. They seemed to be so cool, like James Dean,Elvis Plesley, or something like big star...that I can't possibly imitate to be.
And what's more, they've got a expesive vehicle, a motorbike as well as a luxurious accommodation, like a big condominium incruding a bar counter that seems definitely impossible for me to come by...
As long as I tag along with those guys, I was no longer strapped for cash either.
But later I found that it was all illusion. They've only played tricks on me dozens of time, and I wasn't able to get away from them.
Sorry, it's time...bye for now, see you !
take393
To tell you the truth, as I was pretty hectic these days, and my dad god rest his soul all of a sudden last month, that's why I couldn't get around to it..so it took me quite a long time to get into this essay. Sorry for making excuses.
As you know...today is the Christmas eve...but unfortunately, I have no plan yet,and I haven't come up with the idea how to spend it either.Since I'm not a Christian, nor am I young enough to think of how to make it up for the wasting times, you know.
I haven't celebrate my own Christmas for ages, since I had split it up long time before.
Today,I'd like to mention how I addicted to drugs and stuff.After I've got acqainted with two guys which I mentioned before, I was just playing around and I ended up being kicked out the university, as it seemed so hard to get a degree within 4 years.Rather I was really wanting to jump into the another pond instead of graduating university.At that time, I was hoping to be richer and didn't want to drag out the situation that I was still down and out.
I really wanted to make my own way so as to seize some chance to make money. I would like to be a certain celebrity, like a millionaire or something, you know. And I was always wondering why most people hold onto such kind of fucking degrees and stuff, whereas some others try to take a chance to seize their dreams. Besides it seemed more fun to take alternative way to make your life fruitful, as far as I was concerned.
2 guys which I met seemed not to be mediocre, so that I was intrigued so much. They seemed to be so cool, like James Dean,Elvis Plesley, or something like big star...that I can't possibly imitate to be.
And what's more, they've got a expesive vehicle, a motorbike as well as a luxurious accommodation, like a big condominium incruding a bar counter that seems definitely impossible for me to come by...
As long as I tag along with those guys, I was no longer strapped for cash either.
But later I found that it was all illusion. They've only played tricks on me dozens of time, and I wasn't able to get away from them.
Sorry, it's time...bye for now, see you !
take393
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Let's get back to my novel
Hi...I'm take393,last time I just went off on a tangent and tried to mention what's going around me.
It sounds so tragic for some readers though,while I'm trying to write something of my own,I'm sure that I'm always got to be neutral and I'm always trying to describe things objectively how I feel as well,no matter how things goes,even if it's a good or bad.
You know what I mean?
Today...let's get into my novel in more detail.
After I lost my ex girl friend,I was at a loss and I was just wondering around from place to place.And later after that,I bumped into some guys at a bar.
At that time,I was drinking too much in order to take my minds off her tragic death.
Then I came to realize that every things around me faded away,and that it made me faint and I gradually became confused,and sometime later I fell off to sleep.
Hours passed,it was already dawn out there when I came to know someone was prodding me to wake up....
Two guys were standing right in front of me,and asked me to come along.
I tnrned down their offer at first, but finally I gave in and followed them.
Of course I had no idea how would it be so far...and I wasn't sure what I might gonna do either after I lost her.Only I could do so far was to just tag along wherever they need to go,cause that was the only way I could get away from my tragedy.
The days passed by,we got acqainted with each other closely,then I started to count on them, began to let it all hang out to those guys what was going so far,and occasionally,they showed me some sympathy as well.
I was premature in trusting them so easily,later I came to realize it was all my fault for believing them,but it was too late...
Alright,you guys...let's call it a day, see you next time!
take393
It sounds so tragic for some readers though,while I'm trying to write something of my own,I'm sure that I'm always got to be neutral and I'm always trying to describe things objectively how I feel as well,no matter how things goes,even if it's a good or bad.
You know what I mean?
Today...let's get into my novel in more detail.
After I lost my ex girl friend,I was at a loss and I was just wondering around from place to place.And later after that,I bumped into some guys at a bar.
At that time,I was drinking too much in order to take my minds off her tragic death.
Then I came to realize that every things around me faded away,and that it made me faint and I gradually became confused,and sometime later I fell off to sleep.
Hours passed,it was already dawn out there when I came to know someone was prodding me to wake up....
Two guys were standing right in front of me,and asked me to come along.
I tnrned down their offer at first, but finally I gave in and followed them.
Of course I had no idea how would it be so far...and I wasn't sure what I might gonna do either after I lost her.Only I could do so far was to just tag along wherever they need to go,cause that was the only way I could get away from my tragedy.
The days passed by,we got acqainted with each other closely,then I started to count on them, began to let it all hang out to those guys what was going so far,and occasionally,they showed me some sympathy as well.
I was premature in trusting them so easily,later I came to realize it was all my fault for believing them,but it was too late...
Alright,you guys...let's call it a day, see you next time!
take393
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