Saturday, November 06, 2004

Let's get back to my novel

Hi...I'm take393,last time I just went off on a tangent and tried to mention what's going around me.
It sounds so tragic for some readers though,while I'm trying to write something of my own,I'm sure that I'm always got to be neutral and I'm always trying to describe things objectively how I feel as well,no matter how things goes,even if it's a good or bad.
You know what I mean?

Today...let's get into my novel in more detail.
After I lost my ex girl friend,I was at a loss and I was just wondering around from place to place.And later after that,I bumped into some guys at a bar.
At that time,I was drinking too much in order to take my minds off her tragic death.
Then I came to realize that every things around me faded away,and that it made me faint and I gradually became confused,and sometime later I fell off to sleep.

Hours passed,it was already dawn out there when I came to know someone was prodding me to wake up....
Two guys were standing right in front of me,and asked me to come along.
I tnrned down their offer at first, but finally I gave in and followed them.
Of course I had no idea how would it be so far...and I wasn't sure what I might gonna do either after I lost her.Only I could do so far was to just tag along wherever they need to go,cause that was the only way I could get away from my tragedy.

The days passed by,we got acqainted with each other closely,then I started to count on them, began to let it all hang out to those guys what was going so far,and occasionally,they showed me some sympathy as well.
I was premature in trusting them so easily,later I came to realize it was all my fault for believing them,but it was too late...

Alright,you guys...let's call it a day, see you next time!


Wednesday, November 03, 2004

I'll go off on a tangent

Hi..I'm take393,welcome back again,my fellows!
Well,I'm in a bad fix at the moment...sorry for beating around the bush, but I've got to go off on a tangent for a while.

That is to say, my father has been hospitalized for a few months because of developing a cancer in the vicinity of his liver,you know.
I've been writing certain essays regarding my first novel so far which I drafted in 1993.
But while I'm writing my essays,things were getting so drastically,and I came to a conclusion that I must mention what was going around me.
It was on the 28th of July when my father hospitalized,at that time he was not so bad,though he had some problem with his liver.
Then he started to check up thoroughly,and later he found that he has developed a cancer.
So the doctor recommended us to take a surgery before it spread out.we agreed to have him operated,however it didn't go well.
Meanwhile,he seemed to be getting better gradually,but he began to be feverish all of a sudden from the late of Oct.
I had no idea what was going around,and later we found that he was in critical condition,and the doctor told us that they tried to leave no stone unturned,
however everything went wrong!

'What's the hell you were doing,you are bastard!?'
My mother started to take it out on doctors and she turned to be at a loss right after that.
'Sorry,maam...we know how you feel,but we tried to do our best but he didn't seem to be going well. The only thing we can do for you and your husband is to try to keep his life extended by using a respirator...I guess it should be a last resort we can do...'
So we ended up making a decision that we allow doctors to use a respirator for my father in order to avoid his sudden passing.

As a result,he managed to avoid passing but he is still at stake right now.
Now that I make sure he might not be getting well,nor might he be up and far as I'm concerned.

Sorry that I went off on a tangent,cause I feel reluctant to metion about my novel more in detail today.

Hope to see you soon,viewers !