Sunday, January 23, 2005

My new way of living has just begun

Hi...I'm take393, long time no see.I'm coming back on this site for the first time about a month.
During this period, things were drastically changed, like my way of living and so on.
I've moved out of my house where I lived with my family for a long period, and have moved in the guesthouse to start a new life.
Actually, my new place is really comfortable for me, because I don't need to take care of my mom any more.
While we were living together, she nagged me all the while, and she was talking a lot of bullshit to me on and on.
I was fed up with her making a lot of complaints to me. Of course, I was trying to hear her out, but finally I couldn't help but yell at her. As I had reached at the end of my tether how to solve that problem, I've taken the plunge and decided to move out so as to live more comfortablly.
On the other hand, my mother is still dragging out talking to me on the phone like,
'What's the hell are you thinking of ? what if you left me alone, I'm not sure what would happen to you next!'
I understand she's still worrying adout me to a certain degree, but why not support me and cheer me up when her son try to become independent and never relies on her?
Actually, I feel like it's kind of a mixed blessing after we've been left apart, but I don't feel myself any gilty at all.
I guess I might take a long time by the time she allows me to do whatever I want to, because she never counts on me due to the fucking dumb head things what I have done in my youth.

Oh...sorry, I couldn't afford to refer to my novel this time, next time I'll try it for sure.
Well, see you next time, my fellows!

take393