Sunday, December 26, 2010

Wishing You A Happy New Year !

So only a couple of days left before the upcoming 2011.
Still, the world economy is so bleak with the high unemployment rate, and some people are on the verge of being suicidal due to despair against their lives which seems so relentless.

Having no income for almost 2 years, and owing to the weakening foreign currencies such as USD or Euro, my savings have also been plummeted over the years, and are getting drained day by day.

No matter what it would be, I need to secure the job at all costs before my money is running out of course though I still have some more bucks to make ends meet.

Hope the global economic downturn will soon be recovered, and approximately 3.3 millions of people across the country who are out of work will soon make a fresh start as of 2011.

And I wish you A Happy New Year!

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Maybe I've got to speculate more on this issue before the date changes...

Now its already 11PM, less than an hour left before 16th, and Ive thought that I should speculate more on the issue that I didn’t refer to some SNS before the date changes.

Still today is Aug 15, and what can it be harbored by remembering the date I submitted??
Maybe different people have different thoughts individually. It also depends on each generation or each race, or sexnot the same at all. Rather it should be regarded as quite different in each country.
Like it or not, and some people may fall on deaf ears since the topic seems no picnic to handle it. What makes me tantalize the core of the matter is that it is very controversy issue to bring up, thus I didn’t mention much about it on some SNS Ive been mingling with. But I would like you to remember the date of Aug 15 for those who coincided to visit my weblog anyhow. It is exactly the memorial date of which the World War Ⅱ ended, which was as far back as 1945 on the same day.

Imagine that you were born before the World War Ⅱis taken place, maybe back in 1930s or 40s, and your life supposedly been exposed in such historical upheaval. Your life might not have been guaranteed up to the present, who knows? Or your life expectancy might have shorten up just because of the unexpected tragedy which you cannot take controls. .

How lucky we are being skirted around such tragedy just because of the later birth which was after the World War !
And also we take peace and safety for granted that weve never thought of such calamity on the daily basis, what do you think?

Im also one of those generations who have never encountered such tragic war, and it may sound too audacious to speculate that stuff in the eyes of our predecessors as well.

As far as I am concerned, my grandparent’s generation (Born in 1900s-1910s), and also my parent’s generation (Born in 1930s-1940s) must have gone through hard times over the periods. Especially I hear my grandpa was sent into troops, while the rest of his family (My grandma, dad, uncle, aunt) fled to the countryside for safety during the war. 

And after the series of air raid, most of our town (Tokyo, Osaka, Nagoya...etc) turned into burnt-out ruins in a brief moment. 
The worst has come to worst in Aug 6 in Hiroshima, 9th in Nagasaki, where 2 atomic bombs were thrown down to the heart of the city. It is said that at least 250 thousands people were killed in both cities, and they were completely ruined. 

And to make matters worse, there are still a lot of victims who suffer from aftereffect of atomic bombs up to the present, which means damages have ranged up to 3 or 4 generations. So you can easily imagine how threatening the atomic bomb is! 
Even after 65 years passed, there are still a lot of victims who suffer from aftereffect. And as a last resort, they filed the lawsuit against their government to compensate their loss. 
Consequently, some are settled, and some are unsettled.

Nevertheless, there are many countries that still have nuclear weapons, and the development of those nuclear weapons is still under way in some countries as you may know. 
Namely US, China, UK, France, Russia, India, Pakistan, Iran, and the notorious North Korea, which also puzzles us over Japanese abductees over 30 years or longer, and etc…must abolish nuclear weapons across the board.

The fact is today is the day we should pay a tribute to the memory of deceased who had unfortunately passed away by involving this war. Also we must pledge ourselves not to wage war again for the sake of nation's permanent peace. Maybe this is the common sense for people all around the world regardless of your age, nationalityetc.

So please just bear it in your mind that this is the historical fact and you should harbor something in your mind no matter what. Wherever you are and how you spend your day …make sure to remind the date of Aug 15. And to say nothing of, Im not a hypocrite, but I think its our obligation to remember the war dead in every Aug 15. 
Thats what I wanted to say in my utmost
Well, thank you all to get all the way through my updates regarding this issue.

Friday, July 23, 2010

Just a single blow…but totally pissed off!!

Well, in recent days Ive totally disoriented just because of a series of setbacks, besides my head is likely to melt down coz it is extremely hot & sticky out here in these days, which marked the highest temp ever the past few years.

Indeed, this relentless weather entirely wears me off, takes everything away, my sleep, exercises, which are walking & work out, even makes me feel reluctant to head out for moms hospital periodically. Last time I met her was in July 7, and my fatigue has accumulated as a result of vicious circle of debauched life style. It does prompt my sleep disorder, and ended up getting lax in my life even after the World Cup aftermath had completely subsided.

To put it more specific, I can only sleep 1-2 hours at night, and waking up at least for 4-5 hours or longer after that, and then sleep again around extra 4-5 hours in the afternoon if I can afford itSo the afternoons rest should be my tight sleep. Which is totally opposite from the bulk of people, and it is not just a nap. But sometimes I can only sleep extra 2-3 hours just like today when it is extremely hot, even in the environment where the air-conditioner is equipped with. Still I sweat it out while sleeping at times even though the living room is air-conditioned, and thats the mystery.  

So I sometimes feel sorry for my mom, just because of leaving her alone at the hospital for awhile, and no one but I visit her sometimes, but should it not be enough, I know.

Wellits high time for me to take you into my confidence, which is about my moms status.
Currently she has developed Schizophrenia, whose primary symptoms are hallucination or delusion, especially paranoia, which is similar to manic depressive disorders, but not equal. For detailed explanations, have a look at the link;   

To be honest, what triggered her to develop this disease is yet to be found out even doc still cannot pinpoint the primary cause of it.
Actually we tried a series of treatment for her from her first hospitalization in Nov 2006. In the past, she did recover her illness and was able to check out and stayed home several times for a period of times before her current hospitalization as of Aug 2008, but after a series of setbacks, she is getting senile and she has also developed Parkinson's syndrome as a complication just because of side effects on medical treatment.

In conclusion, I must admit the odds are against her illness from the recovery, which means hardly to recover, she may stay in the hospital until she passes away, who knows??
So I told one of my friends the other day that it seems at the end of my tether on how to tackle the issueIndeed, Im in the deadlock at the moment.

Also I need to find my job as soon as possible however I also have some health problems as you may know, which hinders my job hunting.
So far, I can barely make ends meet, which I still have around $50,000 or more for my savings including foreign currencies, but before running out, I have to secure a job of course. Or at least things get better, Ill apply for my new job as Ive been such long at loose ends no matter what  which is nearly 18 months  just as my uncle feel anxious about.

Seems I referred to a sanctuary which I never mention on FBso that should be enough.

And lastlyit is just a single blow though what got me totally pissed off was the sudden incidents occurred in the morning, when I was logging on Facebook, Ive found that the number of my friends was diminished, which was 41 to 40. Soon Ive figured out who the hell removed me from his friends list, but it was hard to believe at first when I tracked down the culprit, one of my close friends, but precisely it was a long time ago, now were just acquaintancesso it was not that severe impact since our relations are fading away after many twists and turns that we both had to go through.

Anyway, slow and steady wins the racenever rush but keep steady going seems the best bet!
Thanks for taking your time to read them all!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

Just remembering my sis Mariko...

Well, as I wrote on Face-book ― one of the popular social net working service I've currently mingled with ― today is my then sister Mariko's birthday, who passed away at the age of 30 in Feb 2002.

She turns to be 39 if she were alive, so her life was very short considering the tragic incident...and she will never come back, of course.

But at least what I can do for her is to mourn over her sudden passing with her daughter (my niece) every year for her. However, my niece and I are far apart, I live in Tokyo, while she lives in Sendai with her dad (my brother-in-law), gland-ma and gland-pa, which is about 400km away from my place. Still I believe our bond is solid enough to be as one, no matter how we are apart. So it should be no problem for us…I believe.

I still don't know whether Mariko led happy life or not during her lifetime, and still don't know why she had to end her life not by accidentally, but by choosing her death of her own accord.

Well, I don't intend to speculate about the cause of her death at this time at all.
But I only wanted to bear this in my mind forever as long as I live.
What is more, today is the day to pay my tribute to the past when she was still alive, spending her days with us family, which are my then dad ― who also passed away at the age of 70 in Nov 2004―, my mom ― who has been hospitalized for a long since Nov 2006 ―, and me.

I remember my sister was a bit clumsy in terms of leading her life just as me, which means she was unlikely to let things go away, rather she let all her troubles pile up inside of her mind and never tried to consult with us whenever something wrong happened to her.

It is so hard to imagine how she was stressful…even couldn’t let it all hang out to her husband, and consequently ended up committing suicide, leaving her 1 year old daughter behind.

And the time passed by after years down the road, my niece has grown up, now she is 9 year old, also in the 4th grade in elementary school.
Provided that she had been older than her current age, which supposed to be 15 or 16, the incident of her mom’s death must have been much more shock to her…I assume.

Luckily enough, she still doesn’t realize much about her mom’s death at present, yet she has a right to know about the truthfulness in the course of getting grownups.
The chances are that my niece must be far more robust in her spirit than we expect, even though she had lost her beloved mother, thereby her mother could rest her soul peacefully in heaven.

In my last word to all the visitors reading this topic, I would like to say thank you so much for sharing your time with me.

And also at the very end of the story, I would like to say to my sis Mariko,
Just be relaxed sis, so that God’s love showers upon you though I’ m not faith in Christianity,

Tuesday, May 04, 2010

I'll recommend you to visit Hakone when you visit Japan

Almost 4 months passed since I posted here last time, forget it!
Now it is during the GW (Golden-Week, which are consecutive holidays from Apr 29-May 5 in Japan), and many people flocking to the sight-seeing spots across the country during this season, and Hakone is not exempted!

Imagine dozens of vehicles are getting bumper to bumper, which is 30 miles long or longer, even pedestrians are going faster than

So I guess mass transit (I mean...train) is the wiser choice when you hang out elsewhere than using vehicles because of this fuckin' crazy traffic Jam!

Speaking of traffic Jam...I remember Bangkok is also dreadful...even worse than Tokyo!

Sorry...I went off on a tangent. Let's get back to the topic.

The reason why I brought up Hakone for this topic is just because I feel attached to this spots.

Maybe I've already visited Hakone more than 10 times in my life, when I was in teen-ager, my 20s, 30s and the current 40s.

The first time I visited here was as far back as 1979, which I was 14 (9th grader). I visited here with my family also my relatives (my uncles, aunts, cousins...Grandma and Grandpa).
There were actually many parties involved (maybe 20 people or more, since my Grandma and Grandpa were still alive at that time), and I remember we celebrated their Golden-wedding (50th anniversary) nearby when we were staying in Hakone...yes!!
My Grandma was 69, and Grandpa was 74, but they were still young.
But both passed away after years down the road (Grandpa passed away at the age of 88 in 1993, while grandma was 84 in 1994) nearly 2 decades has passed already.

The second time I visited Hakone was maybe in my age of 25 or something with my friends. I remember we visited nice spa (hot spring) nearby, being soaked in hot water together with full of joy! It's called “Hakone Kowakien”,
If you have visited Hakone already...guess that name rings a bell, you know.

Now I'm 45 year-old, and I seem getting senile...sorry I'm just joking...but even I get order, Hakone draws me a lot, nonetheless!
Why is that? I don't know for sure, but one reason that could explain is the bunch of sight-seeing spots here and there which attract people regardless of their age!
Take a look at the link;

This web must be helpful for new comers to Japan. Hope it helps.

Only the problem is its fuckin' outrageous price while staying in Japan, compared with other nations such as South East Asian countries...Once you have visited Japan you'll be flabbergasted at its fuckin' expensive price wherever you go...even me as locals feel the same…oh Jesus!

So make sure to carry more bucks with you when you come to Japan...they don't rip you off, but incredibly expensive here…I’m not joking at all!

But anyway, I'm sure it will make your day.
Why not visit Hakone first when you come to Japan?
I’ll show you around for sure, he he
Breathtakingly beautiful sky with beautiful Mt and lakes surely heal your heart, I suppose^^

Ok have a nice day, minasan!

Friday, January 01, 2010

A Happy New Year!

Hi fellows,
A Happy New Year!

So a decade had already passed since the dawn of 21st century.
Time flies like an arrow, and nobody can stop its speed...what we should do is just follow the flow. It's easy to say but hard to act.

So what is your best wish for 2010?
Enjoy your New-Years-Day!