Sunday, January 30, 2005

How did my novel go?

Hi...I'm take393, for the title I presented, I must admit that I have no idea how to continue my novel.
Instead, I wanna talk something else, that is to say...recently, I'm crazy about doing something new, which I haven't experienced before I moved in my new place.
One thing is...I used to have curfew when I lived in my home place, to put it more specific, I had to go back home by 10pm everyday,when I was living with my family.
But now...I don't have to think about it at all,only I have to think about to make my living. Otherwise,I'm gonna be down and out. That's the biggest problem.
Nevertheless, I think I have become more out going person than I used be, to meet some new people chatting over drink and so on.I just wanna see some other people who are out of this world, like some Japanese people speaks fluent English at nearly native level.
And the other thing is, you know...I'm thinking of jumping into another pond like changing job. As I get peanuts every month, it's so hard to make ends meet right now.Actually, it requires a lot of expences,but I haven't got any clue how to deal with it.
In our country, some qualifications must be needed if you change some job, especially if you are over 30.
And to make matters worse, Japan's society has never been opened its doors if you are over 40, unless you were some kind of expertees. That's the way it is in our society. And of course, that problem applies to me too.
So I must consider what I can I do in this world, but it's still difficult to figure out.
As I'm a debt collector right at the moment, rather I'd better think of switching to another Corp at the same field where English are more conducted, instead of jumping into the another field such as becoming a teacher etc.


Sunday, January 23, 2005

My new way of living has just begun

Hi...I'm take393, long time no see.I'm coming back on this site for the first time about a month.
During this period, things were drastically changed, like my way of living and so on.
I've moved out of my house where I lived with my family for a long period, and have moved in the guesthouse to start a new life.
Actually, my new place is really comfortable for me, because I don't need to take care of my mom any more.
While we were living together, she nagged me all the while, and she was talking a lot of bullshit to me on and on.
I was fed up with her making a lot of complaints to me. Of course, I was trying to hear her out, but finally I couldn't help but yell at her. As I had reached at the end of my tether how to solve that problem, I've taken the plunge and decided to move out so as to live more comfortablly.
On the other hand, my mother is still dragging out talking to me on the phone like,
'What's the hell are you thinking of ? what if you left me alone, I'm not sure what would happen to you next!'
I understand she's still worrying adout me to a certain degree, but why not support me and cheer me up when her son try to become independent and never relies on her?
Actually, I feel like it's kind of a mixed blessing after we've been left apart, but I don't feel myself any gilty at all.
I guess I might take a long time by the time she allows me to do whatever I want to, because she never counts on me due to the fucking dumb head things what I have done in my youth.

Oh...sorry, I couldn't afford to refer to my novel this time, next time I'll try it for sure.
Well, see you next time, my fellows!