Sunday, December 26, 2004

New year is coming up a head !

Hi..I'm take393, was your Christmas?
Did you enjoy it?
I didn't do anything special at all. But I've found one thing..that is to say, Christmas let people feel more relax, also it makes people become more tender to others.
Yon know what I mean?
Even someone pushes me around to do the task or something, I can be more patient, I can let someone says whatever he or she wants to. Only the reason's Christmas, so I don't want to take it out on others.

Alright let's talk about novel...Last time I mentioned how I became closer to those two guys..I guess I have to refer to them in more details.
One guy called 'Makoto' was born in Gunma (a northern part of Kanto Region). He was a year older than I.He grew up in Gunma until he became 8 years old. At that time his parents have devorced and his dad has gone away, so his mother had to raise her children.
Makoto used to have one sister who was 3 years younger than he, but he had lost her due to the sickness when he was 5 years old.
His mother had to work around the clock to raise Makoto. While she was working she has developed cerebral hemorrhage and had to be hopitalized. After 2 months have passed she suddenly passed away...though Makoto was still at his age of 8 years old.When he heard the news that his mother died like a dog, he was really in desperate.
So Makoto had to rely himself on his relative who were his aunt and her husband after all, however it didn't go well.
As they were so nasty and often tried to push him around to help their housework and stuff as he grows up. Especially, his uncle in law was so alcoholic that he often beat up against Makoto when he was in a middle school.

One day after graduating middle school, Makoto decided to get away from them, and he wandered around from place to place, and finally he came up to Tokyo all the way from Gunma and looked for a job.
Still,Makoto was 15 then, and wasn't easy to get a decent job, either since he didn't have any guarantor nor had he any identification. All what Makoto did is,to fake up his walking path, for cheating some of his passing careers, prentending to be order as if he were 18, using a fake name and so on. He hid himself and deceived others on and on, and he's got a job at the end.
But actually it was not the one what Makoto really expected. To put it more specific, he forced to work as a 'lady-boy'at a certain gay bar, whereas it was not his cup of tea.
As Makoto was pretty handsome guy, he made many guests being attracted, so that he always ranked the first of the boy's list.

Well...I'm afraid it's running out of time,so we stop there.Next time I'll try to refer to Makoto thoroughly. Probably, that would be next year, I'm really sorry about that.
See you next year, and I wish all you guys to have a nice new year !


Friday, December 24, 2004

It's Christmas !

Hi...I'm take393, long time no see!
To tell you the truth, as I was pretty hectic these days, and my dad god rest his soul all of a sudden last month, that's why I couldn't get around to it took me quite a long time to get into this essay. Sorry for making excuses.
As you is the Christmas eve...but unfortunately, I have no plan yet,and I haven't come up with the idea how to spend it either.Since I'm not a Christian, nor am I young enough to think of how to make it up for the wasting times, you know.
I haven't celebrate my own Christmas for ages, since I had split it up long time before.
Today,I'd like to mention how I addicted to drugs and stuff.After I've got acqainted with two guys which I mentioned before, I was just playing around and I ended up being kicked out the university, as it seemed so hard to get a degree within 4 years.Rather I was really wanting to jump into the another pond instead of graduating university.At that time, I was hoping to be richer and didn't want to drag out the situation that I was still down and out.
I really wanted to make my own way so as to seize some chance to make money. I would like to be a certain celebrity, like a millionaire or something, you know. And I was always wondering why most people hold onto such kind of fucking degrees and stuff, whereas some others try to take a chance to seize their dreams. Besides it seemed more fun to take alternative way to make your life fruitful, as far as I was concerned.
2 guys which I met seemed not to be mediocre, so that I was intrigued so much. They seemed to be so cool, like James Dean,Elvis Plesley, or something like big star...that I can't possibly imitate to be.
And what's more, they've got a expesive vehicle, a motorbike as well as a luxurious accommodation, like a big condominium incruding a bar counter that seems definitely impossible for me to come by...

As long as I tag along with those guys, I was no longer strapped for cash either.
But later I found that it was all illusion. They've only played tricks on me dozens of time, and I wasn't able to get away from them.

Sorry, it's time...bye for now, see you !