Very Last ' my introduction '～all about my family

Hi, I'm take393. How's everything, viewers? Well, it's really hard to explain, you know, I guess I've just thought it's really hard to keep myself motivated all the while. Because I'm likely to be vulnerable when something happens, especially when the bad thing occurs which I'm not expected. I'm likely to feel down, and lose sight of myself how to work on anything what I'm trying to do with my life. In that case, I often look at ceiling with dim eyes, doing nothing.

So I've just realized that I'm still not qualified as a writer. And it seems I should stop writing until I would get ready again, and need to have some break.
So, it comes to the very end, and it's a real shame that I'll miss all the viewers. But I'll keep my word to come back again, probably in a few months.

My last theme is 'thinking about family', and there's a reason why I'd like to refer to this topic. To put it more specific, a certain classic sitcoms in the US gave me some ideas to work on this theme.

Have you ever heard about The Brady Bunch ?
I guess almost all the American people ring a bell, once they've heard about it. I'll explain it very quickly for those who have no ideas about 'The Brady Bunch'.
It's a story of a lovely lady and her fellow who attempt to cope with the troubles that exist in trying to raise 6 children in Los Angeles, California.
Although almost 4 decades passed after they first burst onto the television landscape, it still goes from ratings sleeper in Nick Channel in the US.

This sitcom recalls my passing days when I was living in New York City.
I was always watching 'The Brady Bunch' after school with my younger sister, and we used to draw some pictures of their own and see them each other how it went. And I was always wondering how to establish such an ideal family of my own, like Brady's.
They were actually warm hearted, and I had thought I've never seen such a warm hearted scene of my own.

At the time when I was watching the show on TV around 1977, my mom and dad seemed so hard to get along with each other, there were always fighting, and often my younger sister burst into tears during watching their scenes.
Because my dad was a bit alcoholic, also he was so hectic during working hours, that's why he seldom took care of his family, so that it often got on my mom's nerves, then she started to make a lot of complaints, started to take it out on her husband. It went on and on and on, and that it made me depressed. I tried to avoid getting involved in, and I used to think how to get away from it around the clock.

Later my dad got older, and after he retired, he had changed obviously, because of losing his jobs. It seemed that he felt a sort regret after he lost his job, and he thought the only thing that he could rely on is his own family.

But it was too late, because my younger sister died all of a sudden due to the sickness in 2002, also my dad had developed cancer right after that and he died last year.
Later when I've found Robert Reed starring as 'Mike Brady' had died of AIDS in 1992, it was a deep shock to me, and it made me bring back memories of my own family.

When I think about my dad, I must say all was not lost. Because, sometimes dad was gentle, also he showed us his gentleness from time to time.
For example, he often took us to a lot of places for sightseeing, which was ranging from New York to Canada, or Mexico. Also he often gave us a ride to Manhattan for eating out on weekends. So I can't ignore those aspects when I recall my dad. And even after we came back to Japan, dad continued to do it for us for a long period until he lost all of status and honor at his company due to his retirement.

Now that I've lost 2 people of my family already, who were dad and younger sister, I'm the only one that can take care of mom after she became older.
After we've been left apart, since I moved into a new place, I sometimes think of my mom how she is getting along these days.
I think she's basically a nice woman, yet I've still found she has a mean temper.

Also I had already reached to Robert Reed's age at the time when 'The Brady Bunch' was first aired in 1969, I may as well think of making a family of my own. I'm not sure when it would come to reality, though, when the time has come, I'm probably get married. Yet I'm not sure of Robert Reed's careers as an actor thoroughly, but don't you think he was an absolute nice dad while he was leading his private time as well?

Alright it's time to wrap up my updates. And in my last word to all the viewers who actually went all the way through' my introduction', I would like to say thank you very much indeed.
So talk to you again my friends!

take393